Today,
it rained.

Because it was his last day.
Being our teacher.

Because he is never going to teach us again.

If u could calculate how much rain has fell today..
then that is the amount of tears that fell this afternoon.

If only our eyes had a tap attached to it..
then we could controll our tears..
and i wont feel so mei chu xi
today..

Didnt even have the "face" to hand him his present..
guess he was thinking how no cheng2 yi4 i am.
haix.

he told us many things today..
a lot..
yup.
but somehow the more he say,
the more i dun want him to leave..
just want him to go on saying. talking and talking
on and on..
forever..

telling us his story..
his life..
his thoughts..
etc.

of cuz, he encourage us..
as usual..
telling us not to give..
telling us how impt olvls is...
telling us to jia you..to work hard.

and of cuz, telling us not to forget him=)

played some songs..
i did joted the names down.
lol.
couldnt give a lot of details
cuz like more the three-quarter the time
my world was flooded with tears..

haha..
and amazingly..
i made evonne cry.

okay.. maybe it was partly because of me..
but lets say some other not-as-cute as mr soh
de teacher is leaving..
even if i cry my heart out,
i think evonne will just sit there and mock at me
or sth liddat.
LOL.

he told us not to give up,
lose hope..
to believe in ourselves..
to be true and good to ourselves..

and to live life to the fullest..

tried to controll the tears..
but guess its not that easy..
esp u have to think abt what he said
and NOT to think he is leaving
at the same time.

the rest of the day was a blur//
didnt quite absorb anything..
merely just drifted tru..
oh,
yes, he returned it to me..

but sadly,
when he came up to look for me,
i was in the canteen,
but according to what evonne said..
he called me smallcloud ^^"
soh cute~~

i miss him.
i really do.

even though i keep telling myself
i will get to stay in touch with him..
i will get to see him someday..
i cannot help but thinking abt nvr seeing him in RV again..

even though i keep reminding myself
that no matter what life must go on..
no matter what i mus be happy..
enjoy life
and work hard
as he said..
i cannot help feel empty and cold inside..

i cannot imagine how this life of mine will remain colorful
if he is gone.

dunno.
tried to oocupy myself with other stuffs..
but
failed.

just cannot stop those stupid stubborn tears from flowing..
cannot stop my mind from thinking/missing him.

then i thought about that time brena was crying too..
ms tan said..
go and take a sleep/rest and everything will be fine.

true..
when u sleep,
ur eyes are closed(no tears will fall)
ur mind is shut.
then i wont think of him.

very tired.
very cold.
very pain.
very sorrow.
very empty.

soh sad.

i miss soh.

the song he listens to are so sad..
maybe he is hurt to leave us too =(

even if i never see u again..

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